First off, I’d like to say thanks to all of the people I’m following and for their amazing pictures and quotes and thoughts they’ve been putting up. I’ve been really lacking on tumblr posts right now….I just get on here almost every day and look at alexis’ thousands of beautiful pictures and listen to lindsey’s kid cudi obsession and read the wonderful quotes and thoughts lexie puts up…it’s like a soothing daily dose of medicine. But it’s about time to post some stuff of my own. So welcome back into my life, tumblr!

I think I haven’t been posting anything cuz I haven’t had anything profound to say lately. Of course, I still don’t. I never do :) But I have a heavy heart right now and I just need to kinda write it out. That’s what blogging is about, right?

I want so much for all the drama in my life to just *poof* disappear. I HATE drama or heartache or problems of any sort. I’m the easy going type. So why can’t I seem to get out of all this awful, cry-yourself-to-sleep-at-night mess out of my life? One of my friends heard a word from God a while ago, and I’ve been thinking a lot about it lately. He said, “If you don’t face it, you can’t mend it.” I’ve been doing a whole lot of ignoring, of pretending crap isn’t there, of hoping and wishing and even praying that it would go away. But I sure as heck haven’t been doing a lot of facing. And that’s not helping anything. I’m afraid of confrontation. I’m afraid of upsetting people and hurting friendships. But I think I’m doing just as much harm by trying to pretend nothing’s wrong. I am just as much in the wrong as anyone else. And I am not created to live in constant worry of fear. NOT AT ALL!!! I’m sick of it. “For God did not give you a spirit of timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.”